Summer has been great for me and less stressful than usual, I can say that is because I’m not having to deal with my parents as much like I normally do whenever I’m home. I have spent less money and more time on myself than ever before. At first when summer started I was looking forward to being in an apartment for 2 months and finally staying away from my family. Don’t get me wrong I love my family and know they always got my back but by the end of the day I can barely stand them because of all the little annoyances they do. But back on topic, this summer I was somewhat excited and anxious to get school started, not only was I taking summer classes at Texas State for the 1st time but I heard that the classes were somewhat easier than spring or fall semester classes and that you make friends in the classes since you see the same people every day. So when classes came I discovered that there were people that I had already known previously taking the same classes as me, which was a relief to me (I just don’t like the feeling of not knowing anyone in my class). The professors I have had have been the best and I don’t think their classes would have been as fun if it wasn’t for summer forcing the classes to meet every day practically.
But now, as today is the last day I’m allowed to stay in my apartment (since I just finished a person’s lease) I have had time to chat with my room-mate (Ricardo: he’s a pretty cool dude) and I’ve also have had time to stay in touch with friends and co-workers from the spring semester at Texas State. I’ve also made new ones and said goodbye to old ones (transferring of HEB stores: Round Rock to Kyle) and I’m happy to say I’m proud to be where I am in my life.
I think back on how I used to be when I didn’t have a care in the world when I was in elementary and then I slowly started to care and think way too much about everything that by the time high school had finished I was over analyzing everything and I was only able to put on a show to prevent people from truly knowing I was severely stressed in my life.
I’ll have to say, your perspective on the world changes ever so slightly when you are coming closer and closer to your death bed. Because of the recent events in my life with being in the hospital, becoming a Residential Assistant, finding love and losing it just as fast; I’d have to say my perspective has changed and people do change (heck, I’m living proof).
Recently I surprised my grandma (I’ve done this a couple of times now during the summer) and yesterday when I visited her the 1st few words out of her mouth was “…I don’t get much company anymore…”, that right there made me think about how I have changed. When I 1st met my grandma I was in the 4th grade and bless her soul, she kept up with me and my talkative ways. As the years past and she visited us some more and eventually convinced my grandpa to come visit, I will never forget that she doesn’t offer any kind of support really other than what she can and that is not in moral or emotional support but the support of “I Care About You All”.
Alright I guess this post has gotten off topic quite a bit but it was worth the billion tangents for this one post. Anyway, I’ve had time to reflect on the past and how I ended up getting myself where I am today. I will say this, I am a very independent person (or at least strive to be) and as time continues on I’m finding myself taking a more leadership role through my wisdom (what little I have) and by always providing the observer’s view from more than one perspective. I’ll admit I have done wrong by making wrong choices and knowing that those choices could potentially be the worse choices in my life but hey life would be boring if it wasn’t for people taking risks every-now-and-then. So with that said I’ll leave with a poem that a good friend of mine did (he posted it on FaceBook):
My insignificant poem: By J. Dixon
Choices, like steps -
Come with a risk
However, Instincts:
Should never be defied.
It is God’s assurance.
That your journey to heaven-
is a smooth one.
Just like the poem states: Choices, like steps – Come with a risk. I guess sometimes those risks don’t seem so bad until they come to past.
~People Change with the Times~
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